As the first anniversary approaches of my dying from a full respiratory arrest and being brought back with the help of my wife, paramedics and hospital ER staff, it brings up many feelings and memories.
The past year has been a unique road to recovery and filled with a variety of challenges.
I remember being on the other side of life and what I saw and felt.
Life has a whole new meaning on all levels for me and has obviously altered my perspective. From everyday living, family and friends, to spirituality, new and wonderful experiences have allowed me to expand my awareness. Not all were wonderful, but, labeled wonderful as they were learning experiences.
I am now creating a collection of my writings for publication and in the near future searching for a literary agent and publisher, perhaps even investigate writing a column again on positive attitudes. This blog is my first foray into writing after a very long hiatus and it has been cathartic. The next avenue of creative expression and goal, to again have speaking engagements local, state, national, and international.
It would have been so very easy to give up and merely exist in my easy chair bemoaning the state of my affairs and play the poor me card. I am a fighter and persistent. When my wife was informed that I would be in a drug induced coma for over a week and may not make it, two days tops, she said, “Not my husband, he is a fighter.” After four days I was brought out of the coma. I was breathing on my own and no longer needed the respirator.
Life is filled with surprises and it is how we decide to deal with them on a daily basis which is extremely important. I fought long and hard to get back to living and pushed too hard at times but there was really no giving up for me. Did setbacks occur? Yes. Unexpected surgery three months later was just one. I had to learn to deal with the setbacks and keep my focus on recovery. I have my good days and my very good days just like everyone else.
I thank my wife for the CPR, the paramedics, doctors, nurses and staff for the wonderful and loving care given to me when in the ER, two critical care units and cardiac floor.
I thank each of you for reading and sharing this blog, for your comments and heartfelt thanks to the blogging community.
Never give up, be positive about living life, love unconditionally and forgive unconditionally-yourself and others, let go of thoughts and beliefs which do not serve your higher good, don’t give in to the negatives, be kind to yourself and others, take time for yourself during the day and most of all, be you and all the specialness you are. Let those in your life know how much they are loved and appreciated.
Life is really wonderful and so are you. Jay